Heartache Note To The One I’m “Hung Up” On.

dami
dami
Jul 25, 2017 · 3 min read

This is a heartache Note To The One I’m hung up on…

This is a note inspired when I heard the song Khalid “Saved”…

I was hit by a reality that “Haaa Oluwadamilare! o se wa hung up lori Omo yi bayii”

They say “the hard part always seems to last forever” because we count every seconds spent in it…

This is Not a suicide Note but a Note of realization, probably regrets and hope through finding answers to these questions ;

  • Why am I hung up on you?
  • Are you hung up on me?
  • why are you not mine?
  • Why am I not yours?
  • Why didn’t you say “YES!”?
  • Why did I ask you to be mine ?
  • Why don’t you want to be mine?
  • Why are we not together?
  • Do you miss me the way I miss you?
  • Am I in your thought the way you are in my thought?
  • Are you still thinking of me the way I’m thinking of you?
  • Do you ever think of me the way I’m thinking of you?

I know it took me years to finally open up to you, but don’t blame me, blame my nature…

You know I was genuine, because I see you were true to me when you said “I have another”…

I know you told you me you have another, but I still didn’t care, blame my intuition…

You know I requested you break up with him, that’s how ready I was…


After years of denial, I became angry…

After months of anger, I began to bargain within myself whether this was love, lust, obsession or infatuation …

After weeks of bargaining, I experience mild depression . . .

After hours and hours of mild depression, I wanted to accepted probably you are not the one for me…

But after minutes of acceptance, I knew (and I still know) these are not the Stages of Loss.

BECAUSE I AM STILL HUNG UP ON YOU!


It is crazy how this love thing seem unfair…

but

I will keep your number safe, I hope one day you will get the sense to call me…

I will keep your number safe, I hope one day I will have the sense to call you…to tell you no one else may hold you down the way I do…and will…

I will keep you safe in a soft spot of my heart… whether I will be finally over you, I don’t know…

I hope you will keep me safe in your heart…

I hope you are thinking of me…

I hope you think of all the times we shared…

I hope no one will hold you down the way I did…

I hope no one is holding you down the way I did…

I hope you realise I’m the one for you…

Hope is for the future…and sadly, they say “the future is uncertain


PS: It’s crazy how this love thing seems unfair…

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