Heartache Note To The One I’m “Hung Up” On.
This is a heartache Note To The One I’m hung up on…
This is a note inspired when I heard the song Khalid “Saved”…
I was hit by a reality that “Haaa Oluwadamilare! o se wa hung up lori Omo yi bayii”

They say “the hard part always seems to last forever” because we count every seconds spent in it…
This is Not a suicide Note but a Note of realization, probably regrets and hope through finding answers to these questions ;
- Why am I hung up on you?
- Are you hung up on me?
- why are you not mine?
- Why am I not yours?
- Why didn’t you say “YES!”?
- Why did I ask you to be mine ?
- Why don’t you want to be mine?
- Why are we not together?
- Do you miss me the way I miss you?
- Am I in your thought the way you are in my thought?
- Are you still thinking of me the way I’m thinking of you?
- Do you ever think of me the way I’m thinking of you?
I know it took me years to finally open up to you, but don’t blame me, blame my nature…
You know I was genuine, because I see you were true to me when you said “I have another”…
I know you told you me you have another, but I still didn’t care, blame my intuition…
You know I requested you break up with him, that’s how ready I was…
After years of denial, I became angry…
After months of anger, I began to bargain within myself whether this was love, lust, obsession or infatuation …
After weeks of bargaining, I experience mild depression . . .
After hours and hours of mild depression, I wanted to accepted probably you are not the one for me…
But after minutes of acceptance, I knew (and I still know) these are not the Stages of Loss.
BECAUSE I AM STILL HUNG UP ON YOU!
It is crazy how this love thing seem unfair…
but
I will keep your number safe, I hope one day you will get the sense to call me…
I will keep your number safe, I hope one day I will have the sense to call you…to tell you no one else may hold you down the way I do…and will…
I will keep you safe in a soft spot of my heart… whether I will be finally over you, I don’t know…
I hope you will keep me safe in your heart…
I hope you are thinking of me…
I hope you think of all the times we shared…
I hope no one will hold you down the way I did…
I hope no one is holding you down the way I did…
I hope you realise I’m the one for you…
Hope is for the future…and sadly, they say “the future is uncertain”
PS: It’s crazy how this love thing seems unfair…
