THE DARKNESS

The challenges of life are slowly choking me
I wake up each morning and see a different me
No more drive, slowly disappearing into the darkness of life

How can I loose myself to this dark place and have no control
My soul is gone, and I am empty…
no longer knowing what is reality and a dream
slowly going insane and trying to remain the person I've always been

No longer having that strong example of what use to be
so now how am i suppose to strive when my example is a broken version of me
Constantly being pulled in two directions but it doesn’t know that physically I’m here but mentally I’m not present
Trying to over come these delusions and constant temptations
I refuse to become a victim of your horrible darkness

each night i toss and turn fighting my sleep
trying to stay away from the darkness that lurks while i sleep
the feeling of its aggressive touch is the worst pain Ive ever seen
sometimes i silently weep to myself hoping it doesn’t hear or smell that I’m weak

Just because my foundation is no longer complete doesn’t mean that i haven’t retained what its taught me
each day is a new found struggle within myself and I’m trying to beat it
As i rise i feel as if there is barely anything left to work for
The dept of the darkness slowly take over my body and i become weak
all i want to do is lay in bed and sleep and maybe when i rise again things will be different

I never experienced this feeling and I wasn’t really shown how to defeat this beast
I hear helpless cries and wish that i could be held at night for comfort
but there is no one that can truly take that feeling away

I hear helpless cries and wish that I could be held at night for comfort
but there is no one that can truly take that feeling away
because I discovered that the darkness lies within me!

because i discovered that the darkness lies within me!