I never thought I’d like the feeling of shattering… But I love it.
Tonight I’ll lie awake… eyes pinned open wide. The feeling of my insides churning like the cogs in my mind. Tears waiting patiently to fall. In the midst of turmoil I’ll contemplate turning back. Undoing all of the progress I’ve made just to feel content. Life is easier if you repent. I won’t rewind the hands of time as tempting as it may be. It’s better to ruminate in the mess that has become me. I’d rather feel discomfort clinging to me like wet cement. The doubt in my voice velvety as it slithers off my tongue. I’m so sorry to disappoint… seems you can’t break someone who is already shattered beyond repair.