Dear Future Self…

My 2016 words that took me around the globe to make peace with regret

“Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” — Unknown

Dear Future Self,

Hey Firecracker, how’s it going? I know we haven’t been properly introduced, and I’m sure we’ll cross paths at some point, but now is a good time for me to say hello.

I’ve been thinking about you and life and wanted to reach out. The thing about life is, you never know where it’s going to take you, who you’ll meet and where you’ll be in the next phase of it — but I think you know all this already. I can only imagine what you’re going to be like. If you’re anything like me today, you work so hard, you love so hard, you dance your way through life so seamlessly. You’re unstoppable. It’s impossible not to see endless possibilities lying ahead waiting for you. I anticipate you’re probably still vibrant, vivacious, clever and curious. Don’t quit those things. You probably still tell really bad jokes. Now might be a good time to curb those.

What I can tell you is the minute I hand you the baton, it’s on — and your ride will be a wild one! You are not a dull soul. You couldn’t be if you tried, so I’m not worried about that. But I do worry…

I worry that you’ll continue to spend too much energy on stupid shit, things that don’t matter, people that don’t matter. Continue working on this. I received a meaningful piece of advice the other week that I’d like to pass along: have boundaries. I’m just here to relay the message, but I’ll let you figure how to put this in motion. But think about it.

One thing you should know about me is that I hesitate in moments even when I am certain. Why? I don’t know. But I do it and I’m working on it to be better for you. Scare the shit out of yourself by making big moves. Be bolder and braver in your decision making because that’s how you come out on top, that’s how you win at life.

You’re not going to want to hear this, but I’m likely going mess some things up between now and well….you. You’ll probably end up having to clean up a mess of mine and feel the impact, even years later. My bad and I’m sorry. At the same time, I’ll probably make moves that will change the trajectory of your life — you’re welcome. I’m not perfect, but then again, you won’t be either.

I do wonder, though, if one day you’ll look back in life and wish I had made different decisions, paved a different path, or lived more conventionally. I believe that unconventional is okay at any age. So, that’s the route I’ve rolled with. If you don’t like it, that’s fine, choose a new adventure and keep writing the story.

My hope for you is to be great and that you squeeze every bit of happiness you can out of every day. I hope you take that month long trip overseas I’ve always wanted. Hell, go travel for a while. Or don’t come back! I know not traveling abroad during college was the one big regret in life. That, and not getting bath concierge at my hotel in Nashville a few years ago. There’s still time for it all.

Whatever you do and wherever you go, don’t let materialism, greed or selfishness catch up with you. Don’t carry hate in your heart and keep your karma clean. Don’t let the world harden you no matter what obstacles and challenges you face. Most importantly, don’t stop being kindhearted.

My crystal ball predicts that when you read this letter ten years from now, you will be in one of the happiest phases of your life. It may not look like you thought it would, but I promise you, it won’t be a bad place to be. Stay open minded and you’re going to end up someplace you never even thought was possible. Love yourself and trust what you find around each corner. There are things there waiting. I know it. I see it. I feel it.

Finally, when I cross your mind, I hope you reflect on me kindly and with good intentions. You’re going to be one hell of a firecracker!

You’ve got this.

Sincerely,

Miss Present Day Self


Show a little love via claps for the fact that I’ve been traveling the world for the last eight months with another five to go: 6 continents, 21 countries, countless cities. I think we can all get behind making peace with the past, right?!


Originally published at pairswellwith.me on August 30, 2016.