I feel ashamed of myself for folding inward because a man I cared for deemed me unworthy of his ear and his effort.
And I feel embarrassed for thinking he could be right.
And I feel humiliated that because of him I had to check with others to make sure what I felt was normal even though he insisted it wasn’t. And then I had to check again. And then ask more people. And then check again.
(And I know that rationally I shouldn’t be feeling any of these things)