Stop hitting Yourself, Blockhead!

If someone knows of a writer’s laxative that’s easy to swallow, please let me in on it, because lately, the words haven’t been flowing out of me like I wish they would. It’s been pure, rich, dark molasses. I don’t know what’s going on.

Normally, I can sit down and write a blog post without much of a plan. My fingers usually do a little dance and guide me into saying something meaningful and profound, or so I’ll have you think. Not.

Not lately. I’ve been struggling to get anything that makes sense into the English language onto the page…

Connecting with Loved Ones Suffering from Dementia

“Out of Reach” by Carol Es.

I recently read a short article by Gene Candeloro. It is simply and understandably entitled, Anger. It’s a response to the situation he is going through with his father who is suffering from Alzheimer’s. Reading this inspired me to start typing away about my own experience with my mother who died of Lewy Body Dementia.

Lewy Body is sort of like Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s combined into one awful curse. It’s difficult to witness. Perhaps the only silver lining is the fact that its not as long-lasting as Alzheimer’s alone. …

Confessions of a Working Artist and Writer. . .

I decided to edit up my last blog post for Medium and make it a bit more universal for people who don’t exactly know me, or know me yet. This could be a good writing exercise so I can speak to a wider audience. I don’t know. Let’s see what happens.

In my last article, I introduced myself, but I want to give you a little more history.

Before the dawn of time, I came onto the web in 1995 when trying to find other artists and writers to connect to was like trying to solve the Black Dahlia murder…

I’m pretty new here and don’t know what I’m doing yet. I posted one article back in November about my upcoming book and it launched in April of this year (2019). Then, I forgot all about coming back here. My bad.

My plan was to introduce myself to the artists and writers community and share my blog entries, if I may. Maybe it will expand my readership. Maybe I’ll make a few friends. Maybe people will be interested in my recent book, or my upcoming books, my artwork, or the crazy things I have to say.

I’ve been keeping a…

I recently wrote a book, Shrapnel in the San Fernando Valley. I’m about to launch it early in 2019. I’ve come to Medium to see if I can talk to other writers and artists about what they are up to, and hopefully make new connections.

Carol Es

I’m a professional artist, writer, and drummer from Los Angeles now living in Joshua Tree, CA. You can read more about me at

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