A growing and somewhat confined human being who is on a journey to self-discovery and self-improvement while trying to have her unorganized thoughts be heard.
Last night, I texted you with honestly, no expectations because I had a feeling you wouldn’t want to talk to me in any way. To my surprise, you did reply- you replied with an “out of courtesy” message since I wrote a somewhat lengthy message wishing you a good year.
I hope you’re okay- I really want to talk to you because deep down in my gut, I feel like you’re not okay right now and I don’t really know why. I wish I could extend my hand and ask if you’re alright and be there for you, but I know I won’t get a response. I still hope this gets to you and you’ll understand me.
Understand that I still like you, but I still don’t want to do anything with those feelings.
Understand that I don’t fully believe you when you said that you only liked me for my attention, but I don’t fully understand you either to know the ultimate truth.
It’s been one week since you’ve cut all ties with me- and though I am aware you have blocked me on everything, it still hurts. I don’t think it would hurt as much had you just stopped talking to me and not block me but the fact that you didn’t want me in your life that much makes me so sad. I have never had…
I slowly feel as if my life is crumbling. I have officially lost count of the many hours I have spent crying and fretting over this. I haven’t been able to sleep or eat, and I haven’t been able to leave my room without feeling an overwhelming sadness consume me. I’ve been feeling lost, anguished, devastated…