This story is about my daughter Lora. Or perhaps more about how she, unwittingly, accompanied me through a dark and wonderful episode of anxiety and depression. Where she sometimes simultaneously was the cause and the cure.

I’m a photographer from Amsterdam, Netherlands. I have been published in Harper’s Magazine, Interview, Boooooom, Vice, ZEITmagazine, Het Parool, DUMMY magazine, NRC, GUP Magazine and a few more. But this is about something much more personal…

“Papa, does everyone die?”

“Yes, sweetheart. Everyone.”

“Even firemen?”

In the fall of 2013 I suddenly panicked. Just like that. And then it multiplied. Into thousands of fears…

Caspar Claasen

Autonomous photographer based in Amsterdam, Netherlands. More here:

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