The reason I only have two blog posts worth reading.

It’s so hard to write in college.

Well, let me rephrase that.

It’s so hard to write in a moment of passion while in college.

You know, those moments where you learn something that lights a fire in you, whether it be anger or excitement, and you want to vent it out by writing while your feelings are strong. Maybe it’s just a writer thing. But either way, I can’t. There are a million things I need to be doing right now: papers, studying, projects, you name it. I can’t get a break.

Some can argue that I need to manage my time better, but that’s the thing: I’m working hours at a time, no extended breaks. There is always something to do. So right now, as I’ve found out the contents of the Hunting Ground, a documentary about sexual assaults on college campuses, and my heart is racing because of the revolting things I’ve learned, all I can do is push aside the feelings to sit down and create a presentation for English.

Study for an Economics test.

Take notes for Science.

Finish a journalism assignment.

Put together an art project.

Work on the three essays whose due dates are coming up.

Study overall for the multiple finals coming up.

And still somehow get eight hours of sleep per night?

It’s another fifteen days until finals are over and summer vacation begins. It’ll be another fifteen days before I have the time to sit down and write. Fifteen days before I have more than fifteen minutes to jot down a few thoughts like the fact that I don’t have any more than fifteen minutes to jot down my thoughts.

But that initial, first reaction, moment of passion won’t last fifteen days.

I’m going to college to become a writer, but I don’t have time to practice writing. It doesn’t make sense.

I had a goal before I moved to college that I would write every single day. I soon realized that wouldn’t be possible. Second semester, I challenged myself to once a week. Here I am, the end of second semester, and this is the third time I’ve managed to write a blog post. I missed fourteen other opportunities this semester.

And that just plain sucks.