Aphantasia —Out of Sight, Out of Mind.
Benny Kappler
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Same. It’s hard to explain to people who don’t have Aphantasia. My husband asks how I can even remember directions to the house. It’s not memory. Of course I can tell myself where the house is and describe the house. I just can’t see it. When I first realized he could see entire scenes from a movie and more, I was very angry that I couldn’t. I mourned the inability to picture my son’s face when me moved away from home. I do think it is a disability. I realize how many ways I circumvent that loss and how it explains so much about things that people thought were strange about me in the past, like why I would paint a room one color, hate it and paint it a new color. People can actually visualize what the room would like in that color? What? Or, mental math — people can actually imagine writing math on a paper in their minds? I don’t see any benefits, other than — as the author said — no being able to re-see a tragic event. That’s it, as far as I know.

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