This is How The Fuck I am Feeling / What am I going to do now?

Cameron Banowsky
Jul 23, 2017 · 1 min read

23 July 2017 /Poems

This is How I am Fucking Feeling


This Is How Fucking I am Feeling
Let me just be honest with you,
writing this down and thinking it through
Shit, I fuck up No I didn't fuck up Shit, I fuck up.

There my be rhyme or some reason but the ones you loved should be banned for their treason
and yet here i am breathing
while she holds her breath praying I'm seeing
I don't see all that well. Writing a poem, reading a book, this is my hell. From experience I know most certainly well The outcome is going to be a dizzying spell. The optics of illusion need to be focused.
Not bred in us for lazy purpose.
Fuck, this not my mistake.
Ever heard me cry over a fucking birth cake?
And this is the girl I'm throwing away.
What has she done to deserve this fate?
While I can't say much.
But know that at my core,
That shit you pulled was like hunting animals fighting the boars.
All I ever said was give me honesty. Don't know if this makes shit senseOr even a reason,But this is how I have been feeling.

A poem in progress.

CB

Cameron Banowsky

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I don't give a shit about normalcy. In fact, strive to be strange.

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