Depression is a habit.

“In my life I’ve gone through a lot of really hard times. I went through depression and had so many challenges that I overcame. And I overcame because I just decided to be happy.” ~Lilly Singh

I woke up from a dream today that made me think that I still haven’t yet worked out all my thoughts. I call it “working out my thoughts” because I’ve always felt as though my thoughts were just thoughts — but real thoughts are not reoccurring, self-destructive voices, no.

Depression, from my standpoint, is what happens from the reoccurrence or manifestation of thoughts that in turn pull an “emotional trigger” with us. I feel that for myself, these thoughts occur because of a divide between our expectations of ourselves and how we really view ourselves. Sometimes we don’t “listen” to ourselves enough, and in turn our minds wind up thinking in whatever way they can to bring us back into yet another period of overwhelming self-hatred.

What I’ve realized is that my negative thoughts are reoccurring thoughts, almost always resurfacing whenever the situation hints to something about the past. And this is what begs the question: is it really our minds that are the demons or is it our habits?

When I was in high school, I had a talk with one of my teachers on how she handled her own problems with depression. This was the first time I was introduced to the power of one’s habits. She claimed that once she started taking action in changing her lifestyle, she started to get rid of her depression — her feelings of hopelessness.

What my teacher picked up and grew was a strong passion for gardening.

What people don’t realize is how much their own habits have control over themselves. It’s sometimes hard to notice yourself getting up for another snack, or yet another cup of coffee; sometimes you do it without even thinking about it — or even realizing what’s going on.

I feel that this is the same thing that happens for one’s own reoccurring thought patterns. Overcoming depression takes a lot of analyzation. You must analyze the circumstance you are in when your thoughts occur, and what circumstance you’re in when they’re not there. In the end, you’ll find out that your mind works like the hands of a clock; everything cycles.

In all, I believe that changing your depression only takes as long as changing your habits. The trick to overcoming depression is to put your body in a new routine, and to start changing what you do.

Escape it through change.
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