The Internet is a Black Hole
I am stuck in the rut of Summer boredom. The Fourth of July was 3 weeks ago, I’ve already gone on my big family trip of the Summer, and I now find myself in suburban Pennsylvania with absolutely nothing to do.
Normally in these circumstances I’d look for a Summer job, but it’s too late for that considering 3/4 of the Summer is already behind us, and no one is looking to hire a college kid on short notice for just a month of work. After coming home from Boston and finishing my 6 month co-op, I thought that this 2 month period of downtime would be a fun and relaxing time for me. But it’s really just driving me insane.
All of my friends are either down the shore full-time, or they’re working a job all day long from Monday to Friday. Both of my little brothers leave the house early everyday to hang out with their friends, my parents go to work, and I’m left home alone with only my dogs for company. I’ve come up with a couple ways to keep myself busy: playing fetch with my dogs, playing basketball in my driveway, going for walks, and playing video games to name a few. But in the week of downtime that I’ve had so far, I’ve already become bored with all those things.
My only source of entertainment has become the internet. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, I am constantly using the internet on either my phone or my computer. With nothing to do all day, it feels like my life has just turned into a giant cycle of going from one social media app to the next. Instagram to Twitter, Twitter to Facebook, Facebook to Snapchat, Snapchat to YouTube, and repeat. When I get tired of that, I end up laying in my bed binge-watching Netflix shows and taking naps for the remainder of the day. The internet is an amazing thing, but it can quickly turn into an endless black hole if you’re not careful with how you use it. I think that using the internet for entertainment is normally a nice supplement to an active lifestyle, but when using the internet becomes the main activity in your life, it turns into a drug.
I’m generally a pretty happy person, but without fail, feelings of stagnation and boredom cause me to feel depressed. If I feel cooped up or if I feel like I’m not doing anything with my life, I always, always start to feel unhappy. So naturally, wasting away my days at home on the internet drives me crazy. But as I said, the internet is like a drug. Even though I hate spending entire days glued to my phone or computer, being on social media and using the internet feels so good in the moment. It’s instant gratification for a bored brain, and there’s nothing human brains love more than some good ole instant gratification.
I’ve been sucked into the black hole of the internet for a few days now, but the fact that I’m writing this blog at all is a step in the right direction. I’ve just gotta figure out something to do with my days other than sit around and blog. But even finding inspiration for blogs has become a little bit harder for me lately. I draw a lot of my inspiration from personal experiences, and believe it or not, there’s not a whole lot of personal experiences that arise from laying in bed on the internet all day!!
Time to go figure out something to do…