This was inspiring. I am actually going through something similar. Going from counting calories, over exercising, not eating enough, to similar binge episodes (eat till I can’t even move, wait 2 hours and restart)… I can totally relate to the feeling of loss of control. There was a time when I stopped counting calories, but then I restarted after my binges… now, I’m trying to adopt a healthy lifestyle and not use words like “good”, “bad”, “cheat”… Thank you