Day 116.
Ive never been the girl who imagined her wedding.
Where girls would picture their husbands, and pick out their kids names and simply KNOW what their future looked like, I drew a complete blank. I thought it was odd that I couldn’t imagine my future. In fact, it was scary. I felt like an oddity, as if everyone knew what they wanted out of life but me. I feared it meant I didn’t have a future simply because I couldn’t imagine it.
It was the same as not having a «passion». For years I resented my parents for not being able to put me in extracurriculars, the years of friends going to dance, softball and piano slowly shaping their futures while I was left on the wayside.
But honestly, i haven’t been able to imagine a real, tangible and realistic future until this past month. Imagine that? 27 years and not knowing what/ who you really are and what you want?
I want that gorgeous apartment with the view. Dubai, New York, LA. Hong Kong.
I want that partner who gets me. Boyfriend, husband, best friend.
I want that email and bank account that keeps growing :/
I want to be in that place where I can inspire people to be the bes mt versions of themselves.
I want to have real, tangible goals that I can achieve. Ones that are outside of my realm at the moment, but that I can achieve. I want to be able to sell my idea and get support for it to develop and grow.
I want to be able to support my family and friends.
I want that real, meaningful life and for the first time in my life, I feel like I can have it.
