Regeneration

CM
CM
Aug 9, 2017 · 3 min read

Day 100.

It’s been a series of fortunate events.

I can truly thank this 100 day process for leading me to the version of who I am now. When I think back to just three months ago, I barely feel like the same person. I’m a solid, sharpened version of myself, molding slowly into one that I’ve always wanted to be.

One hundred days ago, my life was a pipe dream. I’ve always been the one with her head in the clouds, wishing for success, game, riches and only dreaming in my bed about it. Tonight, I can’t help but realize how fortuitous the timing is. Today is my 100th day, and tomorrow I am sending out my beta launch.

It was originally supposed to be today, but I had to wait on a few items and to be honest I had a lot of difficulty shaping this article. Broad strokes fuck people up. I thought I knew everything coming into this, about how the sites should read and feel and be about. When it comes to writing and finding the writers- suddenly there are millions more details and perspectives and distractions and more that need shaping.

That’s okay though, it leads me to where I need to be. That’s what these 100 days have taught me, working slowly towards a goal, consistently and you’ll eventually get to know it very well. Blind faith turns into real confidence.

And so it led me to think again as to why I started this magazine in the first place. Normally, I have a long answer. It feels lengthy when I tell people, but the short answer is i feel like I have to. I feel like I always want to inspire people to be better. Whether that’s by pushing them to chase their dreams, feel more confident about themselves or to treat one another better- sometimes it feels like there’s not enough of that in this world.

I never felt as if there was enough of that in my life, and I guess that is what led me to giving it out so much. In a way, the thought was that it would come back to me, and I think it’s true.

When I started traveling alone, it was challenging. My first few solo trips were actually for work, sales trips sent to Omaha, Nebraska, Portland, Maine, Durham, NC. They really pushed me to realize I could do a trip alone.

When I finally did go abroad, and alone, I had so many new experiences. New friends. New foods. New me. A rejuvenation inspired simply by being alive in the world. Yet, why didn’t I feel like that at home?

When I finally came back from traveling, and blogging about my travels- I would spend hours researching the places I visited. I learned so much more about the history, culture and people of these places. I couldn’t believe I didn’t know these things when I stood before them. Then I wanted to write about the amazing people I met. Then I wanted to write about the talented people I knew.

And when I came back, i felt like I was back in a grey vacuum. I had changed, and had all this new view of the world (ostensibly more sunny) but everyone inside was still so narrow. No one cared about what was going on in Venezuela, they only wanted to know what was on the bachelor or their next tinder date or the job they hated.

Life felt vapid and surface level back home, the most diverse city in the world. I really started writing for myself, I missed feeling excited about the world and getting to interview passionate people was my fix.

I decided to stop writing my blog, and focus on creating something more meaningful. Something that reflected the talented people, the ordinary people, the weird people, the real people that make up a place.

The idea has changed over the years in my head, but finally it feels like it might be coming to fruition. So for these 100 days I say- here’s to a brand new rebirth. A brand new life. A brand new you and I!

I’ll be launching a beta version of the content tomorrow. Let’s see how it swings.

    CM

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    Writer. Traveler. Brooklyn, born and raised. A new article every day for 365 Days about starting a travel magazine.