The shadow effect

My story of depression is that of being in a dark room all alone cofronting the shadow of yourself you would rather hide and shy away from,the guilt,the embarrasment,hurt,pain,humiliation turn into our shadows, as we refuse to acknwoledge the bad aspects of our self.i was diagnosed clinically depressed 5 years ago even though i knew i had been depressed for sometime ,my early remembrance was at 12 years old ,fast foward 12 years later i was on medication for a full year then decided to stop medication(doctors consent o course ) to deal with it head on,i had to go back to the 12 year old boy who was trapped in a room to deal with the root issue,this happened a few nights back when i woke up having what seemed like a panic attack all alone as i have been in my journey i had to convince this 12 year old boy who has been stuck in a room of depression for over a decade to face his fears,but how do you face your fears when they have become part of your personality ,i had to whisper to the lil boy that its OKAY,i then decided to live in the moment,enjoy the chats i have,the food i eat ,watch live going on as in living in the moment the beuty of live is observed

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