Chi 3.0

At the end of January, I made the decision to leave a job that I had become complacent with in order to find a place I could add more value. It has been almost 2 years since I made the last jump out of finance and into the world of startups. Would I go back? Nope. I’ve never felt so awake before since then. My journey has been nothing but upwards from that moment I decided to leap into the uncomfortable zone.

At first it was a sense of panic because I had nothing lined up this time around. And so I did what any responsible person would do. I lined up interviews, I wrote, I sought out and even gave advice, I started reviewing my finances, I kicked into survival mode. But something different happened this time around while job searching. I became more at peace with the unknown. I starting turning down roles I didn’t feel was right. I knew this was the right time to take a step back and start exploring myself internally before choosing what’s next. Something told me I needed to just leave.

And so I decided after leaving my current job and aggressively networking for 3 weeks, I would book a trip around the US to clear my mind. I left my loving boyfriend at home in hopes that when I come back I’d be a better person for myself and for him.

Many people suggested I take a long trip traveling alone to places. But I knew myself. The energy I have tends to manifest around those I am surrounded by. I needed positive healing energy more than anything right now. So I decided to plan a trip around visiting friends that were willing to take me in physically and emotionally for a few days. Somehow their dates of availability all lined up perfectly for me and so off I went!

First stop: Irvine, CA

Diana is a special person. She and I OWNED our high school. She was president of Student Council and I was president of Honor Society. Who knew that 15+ years later we’d still be so close. If it wasn’t for Diana who constantly made the effort to connect with me and would call me out for worrying about things that didn’t matter, I probably wouldn’t be the person I am today. I was also able to visit my cousin, Kelly, and get to know her better. She is a dreamer and I hope she continues to follow those dreams. All I can do is give her the inspiration that she should follow her heart!

My takeaways:

  • Love and respect your family. Love your significant other tremendously and show it everyday. Treat everyone all like adults and let them create their own logic for life despite how young or old they are.
  • Always strive to be the best you can be. If you want something, work for it, learn it, don’t just sit around waiting for it to land on your lap.
  • Anything is achievable despite what situation you are in. Believe in yourself.
  • Do what you love

Second stop: Phoenix, AZ

Amelia is a spiritual person whom I always admired deeply. She and I although knew each other through Pan-Asian Dance troupe at Penn, didn’t really connect until senior year. Even so I don’t think I got to know her as well as I did this past week.

I just had a feeling going to her would help me figure out where I want to be next. We did yoga, swing dance, float spa meditation at True Rest (which everyone should try), pottery, re-sorted cards that were all over the place for Dominion, cooked, laughed, danced, cried. She allowed me to open my heart and feel again.

My takeaways:

  • Love others but more importantly love yourself. Acknowledge that love and work on it constantly with those that matter. It’s ok to follow your heart. Let it heal.
  • Put yourself in uncomfortable situations. Silence your mind. Listen to yourself.
  • Everyone has something to offer no matter what situation you are in. Inspire each other.
  • Do what you love

Last stop: Park City, UT

At base of Canyons Mountain

Amanda Gobaud is a ball of energy. She and I both loved organizing events and as a result found ourself together as part of the Startup Weekend NYC organizing crew. She reached out to me again probably for the third time about going to Utah. But this time, I decided YES let’s do this. I needed to do something I loved again. Rujin is someone who I think is also searching but also enjoys the snow. I asked her to come along for the ride and be my snowboarding buddy!

And so we met up with her and a few more friends for an epic snowboarding trip. We’ve snowboarded for 2 days now and each day has been nothing less than amazing.

My takeaways:

  • Know yourself. Be ok with where you are. Own that mountain or caress that mountain but be ok with whatever choice you go with.
  • Breathe. Look up and enjoy the beauty around you. Have fun with yourself and with friends. Eat well. Rest.
  • Challenge yourself just a bit more everyday. You can do it.
  • Do what you love

And so my trip comes to an end tomorrow but I feel quite energized for whatever is next. Thank you to everyone who has helped me these past 2 months. You know who you all are =). Love.

Onward to the next adventure! What is it? TBD ;)