I created this account just so I could respond and say thank you for everything you wrote here. I too am not strong enough to attempt to come out as non-cis, so much so that I even have a hard time writing this relatively anonymous post.
So from one closeted person to another, thank you for being the voice I lack.
You did a fantastic job. I hope this note can give you the closest analog to a standing ovation possible, even if these words fail. I couldn’t hope to truly relate with your experience (as I am a ‘cis’ [I hate the connotation of that word] male) but after reading this, it broadened perspective. Thank you for being objective and presenting most — if not — all facets of this. Keep your head up; stay strong.