Cynthia, what a strong piece you’ve written here, loaded with much honesty and insights that will ring true to many in this world.
Somehow I think there’s much to find in fame, but fame of one’s work /contribution rather than the fame of a name. For some, fame serves the purpose of honoring the memory of those who pass in the hope of being remembered. Much more than an ego to flatter, fame then seems to provide with a sense of security in the way it transcends one’s death (like we’ve seen with Prince, etc.) and makes their life relevant.
Now those who don’t feel they need/want fame in their lives are the ones who truly are impressive, in the sense that they are secure about being remembered and having touched their own people’s lives (family, friends, personal local fanclub). The ability of an individual to mark the people who are close to them only attests to a remarkable gift and substitute to whatever prospect fame had to offer.
Despite your “tyranny of desires” weakness and in all your authenticity and humanity, you don’t want fame because you don’t need it, and don’t need it because you’ve already had a strong, reassuring impact on the people who matter to you and to whom you matter. You’ve earned recognition and respect already. There will be others craving it and assessing possibilities for such an impact, and seeing that they can’t have what you have, they’ll resort to the quest for fame instead, because they will not have found their salvation yet...
Again, interesting and insightful piece. Thx for the read!