Injuries

I wake up, dazed, confused.

My vision is blurry. It feels like I’ve overslept. Where am I? I blink a couple times, try to lift my head up, but I can’t. It feels like I weigh a million pounds. It’s bright. Everything looks white.

Roll my head over to the left. What’s this cord sticking out of me? It’s bright. I’m sleepy.

I wake up, dazed, confused. Someone’s tapping on my chest. Where am I? I blink a couple times, try to lift my head up, but I can’t. It feels like I weigh a million pounds.

Can you understand what I’m saying?

Chris

Blink if you can hear me

Who’s talking to me? Why is she asking that? Whatever. I blink, nod, gesture. I’m sleepy, let me go back to bed.

I wake up, dazed, confused.

I’m starving. I open my eyes. It’s bright. I want candy. There’s a person standing next to me, I think I know her.

Can you get me some candy?

What are you talking about?

The candy upstairs, of course. Why is she asking?

Get me some skittles upstairs in the vending machine.

What are you talking about? There isn’t anything upstairs.

What?

I’m hungry. What’s this cord sticking out of me?

I wake up.

It’s prom night! Three months I’ve been waiting. My friend is just waiting for me upstairs. She’s getting skittles for me. But where is everyone else? Why isn’t anyone getting ready?

Do you know when my friend will be ready?

Chris it’s okay, just relax. Your mom will be back soon.

No, my friend. We’re supposed to go get stuff for prom.

It’s okay, don’t worry. Everything’s fine.

Phew, I was worried for a second. I’m tired. Just gonna close my eyes for a second.

The door opens. It’s my girlfriend.

Chris you need to wake up, it’s already 10am.

Really? Okay.

I get out of bed and start getting ready.

The door opens. It’s my girlfriend. She looks annoyed.

Chris you need to wake up, it’s already 11:30am.

Really? Okay, I’m getting up.

The door opens. It’s my girlfriend. She looks really annoyed. She walks over and pulls the sheets off.

Chris. Get up! It’s already 1:00pm.

Really? Okay.

Goodnight, Chris.

My girlfriend rolls over and goes to bed.

I feel miserable. I feel so lonely. She can’t understand how I’m feeling. I can’t remember anything. I can’t understand what’s going on. I lost my job. My girlfriend sounds so cold when she talks to me. I’m doing everything wrong. I have literally noone in my life who is by my side.

I grab a tissue. Start sobbing uncontrollably.

My life is ruined.

My heart hurts so much. I need a distraction. I pull out my phone and start browsing Reddit.

The phone rings.

It’s my mom.

Hello?

Chris you need to wake up, it’s already 2pm.

Really?

I get out of bed. I feel so tired. Feels like I was up all night. Where was I last night? Was I out partying again? I search my memories. Was yesterday prom? No, I don’t think so. I’m already working. Look outside — it’s sunny, looks pretty warm. Oh, right, I’m in San Francisco. What was I doing last night? I rack my brain again. My mind is literally blank. I have no idea. Meh.

Go outside. My girlfriend is sitting on the couch.

Chris it’s already 2pm. I’ve been trying to wake you up all morning again. You have to stop sleeping in so much.

Sorry… I was trying to sleep

What the heck was I doing last night?

No you weren’t. You were on your phone all night. You really have to stop that.

Oh, right. I was reading Reddit. I couldn’t sleep at all last night, I kept trying to but I wasn’t feeling good at all.

Sorry, I really tried. I just couldn’t sleep.

Why is she so upset? It’s not like this happens all the time.

This happens all the time. Why can’t you just try to relax more at night?

I get out of the car.

I enter the restaurant. Looks nice. My friends are all sitting in the restaurant. They say hi to me. I sit down.

Everyone resumes their conversations. I don’t know what’s going on. Everyone looks so happy.

Where am I?

What are people talking about? They’re talking about such deep things, I don’t really understand it though. People laugh. I laugh.

So what’s going on with you Chris? How are you?

Huh? How am I? My life is terrible. I feel miserable. I feel so lonely. She can’t understand how I’m feeling. I can’t remember anything. I can’t understand what’s going on. I lost my job. My girlfriend sounds so cold when she talks to me. I’m doing everything wrong. I have literally noone in my life who is by my side.

…I’m good.

Oh ok. That’s good to hear.

People resume their conversations. People laugh. I laugh. I can’t understand anything.

I feel like a fraud. An imposter. Everyone is living their own normal life, and mine has been hallowed out from the inside, but nobody suspects a thing.

Nobody understands a thing.

I meet my friend for coffee.

We’re best friends. We sit down. She looks concerned.

So what’s going on with you Chris? How are you?

How am I? My mind draws a blank. Feels pretty okay to me.

I’m good.

…Oh ok. That’s good to hear.

I sit there absentmindedly. I look around. What a nice day. I’m sitting with my friend for coffee. What were we talking about?

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