God?

If philosophy has taught me one thing, it’s to question everything you know. Every time I’ve done that, I find a flaw in my reasoning for whatever it was being contemplated. Rene Descartes, I thank you for your meditations. For the majority of my life I undoubtedly believed in God. How could he not exist? As I grew older, however, I hoped to feel that benevolent spirit pass through my body the way it effortlessly did through the other members of my church. I hoped to find some clear, undeniable truth, that out there existed some celestial being with absolute control over the physical and metaphysical. I still am afraid to admit total disbelief for the uncertainties that I may face after this life. I recently read a passage in my Introduction to Philosophy textbook that discusses the existence of evil and God. The text is a conversation between three people: one is a philosopher with the flu, another is a believer, and the third is a student. The argument discusses how a world with God can be plagued with evil. I will spare you the in-depth conversation, but the main point to take away is that God gave us free will, and in that free will we can choose to do evil. Well, couldn’t he have made a world in which no desire to do evil existed, or is that not really free will?