Long Long Way To Go

I wouldn’t even know where to start. My mind is riddled with thoughts of not being good enough, so my first reaction to
“Write Your Story….”
Is:
“Why?”
So lets just pretend this is another one of those edgy millenial BLogs. Or one could assume, this is the scibbling and trying, the fighting and feeling, the thinking and illustrating of a young man, who is trying to become an artist.
And i am not trying to become an author specifically. (Just look at the way i am writing this mess!) No, i will become a different artist. I will dwell in the stories written and conceptionalize and colourize the meaning behind the letters. I will be a director and an actor.
“…Why would anyone read this?”
Well, i dont know. But it doesn’t matter. I need an audience, no doubt about that. But that is not, why i am starting this BLog. I will illustrate my thoughts and ideas about being what i try to be at a given moment, but right now, know this:
A musician has an instrument, he learns to play. An artist has brushes and canvasas he learns to use. A director and or actor has his own body and soul in many perspectives as his instrument.
And for me the major compenents of this instrument, the heart and the brain are in disarray, one way or another.
In conclusion:
I hope, you are actually reading this, and i would be glad if you came along with me on my Long Long Way To Go, but in the end… This BLog will hopefully serve as a tool. A tool, to get behind the disarray. A teacher to teach me my instrument. (And as that i am, of course, totally cool with any grammar-mistakes i am making, or non-sense posts i am posting, since this is basically just another of my notebooks.)
Ideas affect emotions which affect your perspective on the world and with it any given topic. New colours and perspectives on different topics lead to new ideas and new thoughts/theories. This does… n’t read as fascinating as it sounds, but still! We’ll get there! Because this simple view on ourselfe sets a very straight and in my opinion healthy disposition: And cuts ties with the idea of seperating the metaphorical heart and the metaphorical brain. Important disposition for fighting the disarray.
Well i am done for tonight. This is not a clever writen exposition, so that a lot of people follow me here, or whatever it is, you do on this quite elegant website. No, it is a warm welcome of a young man, who is trying to be growing. Come along, if you want to.
