Finding my way

It seemed like it was one thing after another. You know, when everything seems to come crashing down on you and just when you managed to find the ounce of strength left, to pull yourself together, something else happens. And you find yourself trapped in this destructive cycle time and time again…
I was breaking.
There were days I felt everything and days I felt nothing at all. Days I’ve been in and out of depression. Days I wanted to give up on everything, especially myself. I even wondered what it’d be like if I simply did not exist anymore — would anyone miss me? And then I had days that drove me to believing I was too damaged, too dramatic, too needy, just too much. Then, there were days I felt like I wasn’t enough. These past few months I have felt so much pain. I wondered, how life can make me hurt this much.
I was falling apart.
But today, I’m choosing to be okay.
I’m choosing to heal.
To recover.
I’m choosing to learn,
and to grow.
I’m choosing me.
Because despite the pain, destruction, and aching — despite it all,
I will never give up on me.
I am finding my way back
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