I am sorry. I did not mean to hurt you. I am an asshole. I hate what I did. You just pushed me 2 hard. I do not want to have sex with anyone. I am so fucked up about sex. I have been doing sex work for a long time. It has made my head so confused. You were the first person in my whole life who ever cared about me. It scares me. I have no experience in how to handle a relationship. I am learning. Please give me some room. I just need time to sort it out. I love you.