I See Things Different From U b/c I am Not an Adult and I Do Not Want to B 1

Kirk is in the hospital. It is a bad week. Joel is over there all the time. U can not divide them with a knife. We were shooting video for 2 whole weeks. We were also shooting a lot of stills for a project we called I Want to B Disruptive. Leighton has copies of the audio. There were some good shots. They are hard to do. Then all the computers crashed. We lost a lot of work. Nobody knows what happened. It all just crashed. Now Tim has to drive over to be with Joel and Kirk a lot. At the hospital they put a stick up Kirks dick and fucked his dick with it. They better not do that 2 me b/c I will fight them and shit will get real. So Tim is busy at the hospital. He can not help us 2 much with the video. So we are trying to figure it out. Y is it always like U R just always trying 2 just figure shit out. BTW I am Alex. I do not blog b/c I am always very depressed. No one wants 2 hear it. I can not blame nobody. Who wants to hear some loser kid complain? So other ones who R not down all the time like Michael blog. If I blog it will get me in trouble. I C things differently than aduilts see it. This 1 is about how differently people C things.

I had sex with Morgan this week. He was very nice and gentle with me. I have to go slow b/c I get 2 nervous. Morgan is the picture I took. Then I am the one on the right. I never had sex with no drugs B4. It is OK. With drugs it is a little better I think. Maybe b/c then U R not worrying about all the other stuff like will they put a stick in your dick. Now I will B worried it will happen to me. It will probably. If a bad thing can happen then it will find me. I will probably have to shoot video of Mainstreet at night all over again. I hope not. They R not happy when they see us filming in this town. We do not interact with people in town 2 much. They are red necks. All the cops R.

On my 2 do list is 1 from Tim. I have ask Rachel to please not send a box of books that is coming. Or ask the lady not to send books. Do not send books. We got nowhere to put them okay. I got to go shoot some film of it is not going to be sex. It is just like people together. That is how I see it. I think I will do it in a shade of blue. Red was thre first time I shot it. But now I feel like it will be blue. So OK BYE!!!!!!!