This happens for me even in a crappy notebook. It’s pure, blank, empty. If I mess up the first word or have to cross out a sentence on the first page, I’m doomed. I have to combat this. Any new notebook. I make a mistake on the first page. A splotch of ink. A ring of coffee. Anything. Write a crappy sentence, cross it out. Cross out a good sentence if I have to, although there aren’t too many of those to choose from. Bend some pages. Make it mine before it gets to me that whatever I have to put in there isn’t worthy. Easier said than done. It took me forever to write on the first page of this notebook. But now I can scribble as much as I want!