Love at first sight

Cody Lanwermeyer
Jul 30, 2017 · 2 min read

The romantic in me wants love at first sight to be a real thing. I thought I seen it once, a girl that when I seen her I thought God brought her to me, I even told my best friend "she’s the one I’ll marry her". In the end my anxiety and actions I think I ruined the chance. Dose she know the 100% of me? To answer, no. I only told her one false thing, I promised I’d never lie to her. So when a question came about i was unprepared and scared to answer and the only lie I told her came out. With my current life I honestly thought God put her in my way to say "I created something perfect for you, but you ruined it". With my past failures I honestly believe this, and try to fight it with every word spoken. I thought I seen my future in her eyes, and I still try to keep the image alive. Growing old having children, a person to hold at night when I can’t sleep. To talk and be listed to, one of 4 people that know 100% the whole story that is me and accepts it. There maybe 3 people that know that part of me. Two are my best friends and another my sister. My greatest fear is to share this. That is why I’m posting this, so you all can see that part of me. I’ve faced many of my fears recently and this is my declaration of fearlessness. To be at somewhat peace. So the real thing I want to ask is if you truly love others would you fight for that love or let it die?

Cody Lanwermeyer

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A guy just living with a heart

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