August 9,2017 Wed.
Dear Emeka ~ I have to say first that I love to meet people from all over the world or even in my country that came to this unusual country trying to create some sort of new identity . I really feel our country is experiencing multiple personality problems which is not so bad as long as we have one thing in common , we love our country, our people, and want to try our best , genuinely to consider and respect the equal rights and freedoms of everyone and everything as best as we can .
We began this beautiful story in history ages ago to escape tyranny, oppression and to think freely . Most people felt in their hearts felt very strongly about the emotions they felt in which you talk about of which people find hard to explain . Where and why do we feel love, and how can we know it and be certain ? When we exist each day coincidences as some say appear to happen in the world and save lives or destroy lives at inconvenient times . We have no answers for these events that cause joy or pain . Some call them miracles and some just refer them to random chance. You are quite right to say we have more to learn and question than we find answers . I was a teacher for 15 years . I was taught that I could always find an answer for everything since I was very small either by help from God, the written word in the Holy Bible in absolutes, stories , fables, analysis of symbolism and metaphors, and of course the spoken word written down by people who were alive and lived through the translations in physical records. Then we found more proof in the Dead Sea Scrolls and more. As usual some choose to believe these examples in their own interpretations. I do believe as a Literature , Creative Writing , and Reading teacher who has always been an avid reader , that that a person’s search for knowledge or the true light that we all seek to illuminate our minds and the darkness hiding in the world comes from a deep and natural curiosity we are born with as a human being . Call all of these emotions and feelings our motivations our gifts from God which can change as we grow and learn or call them the natural reality of the makeup in our human genetics or DNA. Yes, I think of these ideas as our goals as our purposes in life .
Emeka ~ I know everyday things throughout the world look so bad , but when you go about into the world each day, take a closer look around . Slow down and look at people . Smile, open a door, offer some change at vending machine. Introduce yourself and smile . What you give is what you will get back . Give it a try. I will wait for a reply . I love portrait photography. I have a friend in Israel who has taught me . He always walks the streets and shoots from the hip. Sometimes his subjects are aware and sometimes they are not . He tries to approach those subjects that who are aware to take names and addresses to send them their picture. He finds the loveliest smiles on children with no teeth , broken bones and are starving. But, these children are always happy !
Everyone has to realize that the lives you touch while you are here living in this world should be remembered as the best not the most terrible . You touch people in their memories and heart that will stay with them forever . Sometimes you matter very much to people you may not even realize . You do leave a mark or a empty space in this world when you die whether you realize it or not. You are needed hear and you are here for a purpose whether you realize what that reason is as of yet just yet. Someone needs you or several people need you . Your necessary time of positive impact on one or many may not have been realized yet or you may not have realized all of your goodness and compassion that you have given out among everyone. No one ever comes without a reason . If anything , at this moment you helped me. I am very grateful . You helped me to wake up to different ways in which I can help my
My Daddy and my Mom both have cancer. I divorced from an abusive marriage and before that I was budget cut in my poor state of Mississippi as an experienced teacher. The state could pay the higher wages to experienced teachers or they chose not to because then upper level administrators would not get their raises. Why do you think students have no discipline and are not learning? Young teachers right out of college are not even trained and tested as hard as we were. I felt I was called to that job as a priest or a minister feels . I was a good teacher . But no difference. My job now is to take care of my loveys and I try to freelance write/ edit / blog on the side at home. My parents are not terribly sick yet but things are getting more difficult. I am all they have. At fifty, I was starting to think about what my Daddy is thinking about this issue right now. He is so afraid of dying . He has not one bit of knowledge from his oncologist about anything. His Doctor doesn’t tell him things . He herds them in and out. He is swamped with people. I have not talked to him about a legacy being important to him. All he said was that he wishes he could get his money up to a million dollars to leave us with because he is so scared of leaving us alone and especially me with nothing for retirement. How do I even begin to talk to him about these important things? They must be on his mind. I want be a comfort and a love to my Daddy right now ; not another worry.
Always leave your past to know where you came from . Live everyday in the Present like it could be your last. Always plan for the future! There are ways to be practical and philosophical too. In a way being philosophical and spiritual but I happen to love reading and I read everything. This keeps me quite alive and full of light !

Please stay in touch , Emeka ❤️🎈
Dawn
