To my last love:

Dating has never been “a thing” for me. I’ve only ever fallen in love 2 times in my 21 years of living. I have had my heart damn near torn with all the shit I’ve been through. It’s my own fault because I gave 2nd and 3rd Chance’s to the people who didn’t really even deserve a first. But that is who I am I guess. I don’t have a clue why I do this but I’m the settling kind. Ive never just dated someone and that’s how far it got. Once I find someone I can be myself around and I feel slightly happy I settle. Maybe it’s because I was a parent at such a young age and growing up I don’t wanna screw around and waste my time. Maybe it’s because I don’t look deep into someone at first and I settle for whatever douchebag falls into my lap? Who knows. I’m not very good at picking them AT all! So when I start to consider wanting to really settle I want to make sure you know? That way I don’t make a 3rd mistake. I give my everything in a relationship and I’m so kind hearted and still I’ve had men take me for granted. I’m done settling right now because men nowadays are downright awful. But eventually I want to go to sleep curled up next to the one I love and I want to do that for the rest of my life.

Dating someone with kids

No, I’ve never been with someone with a child. I have NO idea what it’s like or the feeling you get when your significant others’ child grows a connection with me or not. I don’t want to be their mom, and I don’t want you to be my child’s father. It doesn’t work that way. My wish is for my kids to grow up and have some sort of relationship with their mother’s boyfriend or husband. I never liked my step father and that caused me and my siblings a LOT of issues growing up and I can not put my kids through that. I love kids, I have 2 of my own which is why this topic is a BIG deal to me. You can’t just have men or woman walk in and out of your life, what about the kids? Obviously you don’t want them to meet your children unless you were serious. But if you’re serious you have to REALLY know it. Kids can sense when you’re stressed, happy, sad etc. my kids will ALWAYS come first no matter what happens that’s how I am and that’s actually how it should be. Kids are a package deal so if that isn’t ok with you, don’t let the door hit you on the way out. My kids are young but smart and I want them to one day be happy that I’m happy with “the one” whoever that may be my kids are a must and will part take in my happiness. I know that I’m young and there’s people in their 40's that are JUST now meeting the love of their life, someone who completes them and makes them happy. I have so much time left and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for me and my babies.

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