the traitor, the lace and the foreign princess
i’ve been feeling really down. i’m a much bigger person now, but ultimately it affects no one. there’s no one for it to benefit. and it doesn’t benefit me, because i just think about how i used to be, and that makes me sick to my stomach.
i wish i was dead. not that i’m going to try again now. i wouldn’t ever do it now, just, i wish i had died. i feel like things would be better that way. i don’t know.
i don’t know if distraction is a good thing, we’ll see how this all pans out. maybe i need to just focus on what makes me sad, try to get over it. i’m really not sure.
i really want to be able to create something new and beautiful.
“there’s nothing sacred anymore, starfighter.”