I don’t need to beat anyone in my level or above, I just need to beat the version of me that would have competed at the lower level. And if I do beat others in my category, that’s just a wonderful plus.
No one cares about your success more than you do. If you’re not a meticulous accountant about the important details of your life, than you aren’t responsible enough to have what you say you want.
If you aren’t happy with what you have, more won’t help. If you don’t productively use the time you have now, more time won’t help.