I was reading this online devotion today when I felt the words stab stab into my heart. Well, not the stabbed in the hurtful way, more like the stab at your heart cos isn’t this article describing you kind of way.
It talked about how some women, well those modern established ones go around organizing events, select the best canapes, include a selection of wine and cheese to match with gluten free biscuits and just look so well put together. I think I am one of those, I try very hard to pay attention to trends, I keep up appearances and busy myself like an accomplished women would want to look like. And I rarely stop to listen.
I need to learn to be more like Mary. But even now, I can already feel annoyed at her. I’ll probably think that she’s a simplistic dimwit who doesn’t have goals in life.
Hahaha, funny. I just opened my bible app. And guess what verse was staring at me.
“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
God is on a roll today, throwing things at me that just go straight to my heart. You’re funny you know that, God?
It disturbs me that sometimes I try to act like I’m more spiritually mature. I try to make offhanded comments to show that I’m never perturbed when people complain about their lives. As if I got everything together. It’s only through His grace that I am where I am.
I guess this will be a continual struggle. So God help me.