Time Selfishness:

This is a skill I need to learn. Perhaps most of us do? I’m not sure. But, time is all of our most valuable asset. We have nothing so vital in this life. Guard it with your life. Treat it like it’s treasure. Value it above all else. Don’t let folks steal it from you. Don’t give it away willy nilly. Do not go around parsing it out to strangers, or even close and loved ones. Guard it with your life. It’s all you got. I need to get better. I’m sure you all need to get better. The royal “we” needs to make strides in this area. I wish I were an expert. I wish I did have it down. I don’t believe anyone else accomplishes any more than another, it’s just how similar sets of achievements and successes are allocated. Where will I choose myself to “win” with my time next? Where will you? I worry over this. I am getting older. I pray I’m getting wiser. Whatever the case may be… I need to get a grip on this. The rest of my days will slip away if not. Yours too? I’m not sure. I’d hope there are others who feel this, too. I sense there are. I value the few waking moments I seem to have each day. Sometimes, though, at the end of days… I fear I didn’t do my best. I’m not satisfied with where they went. I think I could have done better. I believe this feeling at the end of the day is a good thing, but boy if it’s not aggravating. Boy if it don’t distress me. Boy if it doesn’t feel like undue pressure: self imposed. I’m a good person. This sense is not in jeopardy because of this. But I want to make the most of every day. I strive to do so. Today would’ve been a great day to end with that fear/doubt/worry more clouded by an air of success. Accomplishment. Conquer. Achievement. I don’t know the words, but I sure know the feeling. I miss that for me this evening. If you’re in the same boat, I miss that on your behalf. I dream (and I will if I ever get to sleep) that we all have that for ourselves individually and collectively tomorrow. Wake and promise: “Today’ll be a good day.” Thx.