2018 Year in Review

“Well, this is it” I thought as I lay on my bathroom floor completely dehydrated and covered in fluids from one of the most violent stomach viruses I have ever experienced.

It’s okay though. I was able to make it to the hospital and get on an IV for 24 hours thanks to the help of my coworker. I was out the next day and fully recovered.

If anything, this is a reflection of what my life has been like the last couple of years. Started off bad, quickly escalated to worse, but eventually made a recovery with the help of some friends and family.

In fact, my life has improved so much this past year that a friend of mine pointed out that I need to “stop posting depression memes because you’re life isn’t that bad anymore.”

And he was right. I’m finding fewer excuses to be a sad boi these days. But there’s a tweet that perfectly sums up why I sometimes feel like I need to maintain this expectation that life is just the worst, and it’s this:

I know that eventually I’m gonna have to drop this act because it’s not really something I should be making light of when it no longer applies to me.

Ultimately this year has been about growth and discovering boundaries. I first started my minimalism journey when I moved into my little loft-style apartment downtown — mainly because I didn’t have much money and very little space to put things.

I eventually reached the phase of this journey where you almost have too little. There’s a quote that comes to mind about this:

“Don’t become so minimal that you disappear.”

And I think I can safely say I know where that boundary is now.

As for the growth? Well, here’s a list of albums of all the things that happened this year:

As you can probably tell, I have become much more active on Instagram over all other sharing services. There’s a few reasons for doing this, and one of them is that the format is much better than FB or Twitter. Also, their stories feature is straight 🔥🔥🔥.

As I’m moving further into my UI/UX career, I’m discovering that much of the values and principles that come with the industry are slowly creeping into my personal life. And I feel like that’s a very good thing. There’s a natural component to it that is always striving to be better and more efficient.

In applying these things to certain areas of my life, I’m seeing some similarities. Going through the design process eventually reaches a point where the project is designing itself. It’s this feedback loop that allows me to understand that I am a product of the things around me — and in a way I am one of those things that makes those products and influences.

Perhaps the most important thing I have learned this year is that I am the best possible version of myself when I am around others. Don’t get me wrong — I love my alone time. But being isolated for so long can have some adverse affects, at least for me.

I feel this type of fellowship relates to a quote by Jean Paul Sartre:

“To be is to be seen.”

Meaning, how I see myself can be directly attributed to the way that others see me. I want to see myself as someone who is honest and caring and supportive. And so I do those things by being those things to the people around me. In which the feedback loop is created.

If there’s one thing I could tell you this year, it’s this: it gets better.

Maybe you’re feeling like things aren’t worth it. Or you’re feeling inadequate in some way. Maybe things aren’t going as planned. And in all possibilities it feels like things won’t get better.

And if so, I want you to know that you are loved. Because if there’s one thing I’ve learned this year is that the universe gives back what you put in it.

Keep up the good work. Walk your truth. Drink plenty of water. And get plenty of rest. We all want you to be around for a long time.

Take care, and until next year…