Day 38

Over the past few days, I’ve learned how to wire my brain towards happiness.

I do this by trying to think of three positive statements for every negative one.

This might go something like this:

  1. I don’t like my job, and it’s tiring for me.
  2. This job tests my stamina and patience.
  3. This job helps me improve my communication skills with other people, especially while working in a fast-paced, high-stress environment.
  4. I learn to interact with a multitude of different people while working as a drive-thru cashier, so I gain valuable people skills that will be particularly important as I see my life going in the direction of public service (as a teacher and/or policymaker).

So like this, I’ve re-framed my perspective to make meaning out of what often seems like trivial tasks.

It’s challenging to stay optimistic sometimes, but I do believe I’ll be destined for bigger and greater things one day.

If anything, I’ve learned that I learn fairly quickly on the job and that I outperform my own expectations on an almost daily basis. So that’s an achievement in and of itself.

I’ve also learned to stop comparing myself with other people. Other people live their own lives just as I’m living my own. There’s really no need to compare between them. Some people reach certain milestones faster than others, and that’s just how things go.

For now, I’m fairly content working two jobs. I feel like I’m contributing to the economy, at the very least, and I’ll be able to help pay my tuition eventually (I hope). And learn how to manage my finances better.

One of the most valuable lessons I’ve learned over the past few days is that practicing self-compassion is very important. I can’t expect myself to be perfect — that’s just being unrealistic. Mistakes don’t make who I am — how I respond to them, however, says more about who I am and what type of person I am.

I’m learning resiliency every day.

And so I soldier on.

Tomorrow’s my 12-hour workday, so I’ll rest up for that.