What do I want to be?

I spent my evening sifting through job advertisements, hoping that I would come across my “dream” job, hit apply, and get hired on in a new position within a couple of days. But, sadly, that isn’t how it went.

Instead, I spent most of my time glancing over mundane and uninspired job descriptions, which practically put me to sleep.

All of the jobs I applied for seemed so boring to me, and it makes it difficult to get excited for any single one of them.

But the fact that no jobs seem interesting to me is a big problem for me. I am 27 years old, and to be honest, no job has ever truly gotten me excited, and it makes me wonder what am I supposed to be? What am I supposed to do?

Ideally, I would love to learn all day for a job. I would love to jump from topic to topic, learning new facts and information, and then discussing it with people. If I could, I would be a full-time paid student. Unfortunately, that is not a real position.

So what am I left to do? Another interesting question. One challenge that I have always faced when it comes to working is that I have always lacked passion. When it comes to fun in social settings, the drive and the passion have always been there, but when I am forced to decide how I want to spend the majority of my day, I lack the passion for any specific topic.

I wish that I could jump from one profession to the next. That I could spend a day dabbling in graphic design and another day writing children’s books. I wish I could plan extravagant vacations for others and photograph them along the way. I wish I could flip homes and restore them the way I want them to be. I wish I had my own bed and breakfast where I could host weekend cooking classes and art retreats. I wish I could be an entrepreneur and give back to my local community with each purchase that is made. I wish I could volunteer in the jungle helping sea turtles make it back out to the ocean. I wish I could help people sort out their problems, improve their lives, and tackle obstacles that come along their way. I wish I could work in the front office for my favorite basketball team or write silly comedy scripts. Oh the things that I wish.

With all the ideas I would like to try, why does it seem so daunting to commit to any one particular path? When all of the possibilities lay in front of me, it seems as though I would never be bored; always facing new challenges and problems to be overcome. But when I focus on one distinct career possibility, I just can’t decide what to do. How can I do all of them? Is that a possibility, even if it means some of these are simple volunteer positions?

For now, I am working my same job, but the desire for change is in the air. I hope I can figure it out soon, because life is too short to waste it in indecision.

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