I have so much empathy for you ladies that wanted larger families. I had 7 miscarriages after I had my daughter and at that point the doctor told me there was no way I would carry one to term, ever. Prolapsed uterus, blah, blah.
Two weeks later I was pregnant again and carried it full-term. My stubborn son was born. Now I have 6 grandchildren and 2 great-grandchildren. So it could happen, but I really think there is something about ‘trying’ that works against us. I know too many women who got pregnant right after they adopted.
And then of course, there is the fact that the age for easy conception has lowered so much since my day. I have medical articles written in the ’80s, I think, that talked about how the phytoestrogens in plastics had lowered not only the fertile age for women a full decade, but cut the active sperm level in men a huge percentage — and doctors weren’t telling anyone what the situation was.
But that’s another story.
I hope and pray that you will come to some peace, somehow.