I am learning to be kind to me, especially in moments of dissatisfaction. Today, I asked myself, “Are you doing only what you want to do?” and the answer today was “no.” And I let the answer remain. NO. Just no. No more editorials to myself. No self-directed criticism. No…

My life consists of morning self-care, time on the computer then movement. And then, more screen time. With primary income for now. It is dreary, but I tell myself: let go and don’t look back. Don’t hang on. Forgive the job, the training, the system, the sacrifice. Forgive you. Forgive…

I am old Yes, the characters that embody the sound of Rice Krispies. And the sound of my joints every morning. I never had this in my 20’s. Sure, a few bouts in my 30’s. Now at 39, nothing else makes me feel older than hearing the snap, crackle…

I cracked the happiness code. My happiness lies in wordlessness, a state of mind where words cease to exist. I do not reach this state often. At times when I meditate. When I meditate, the wordlessness appears as a blue sky mind. Honestly, I need a lot of quiet —…

What is 2 + 2? If you are an educated person, you should say “4.” But I call this SAD MATH. In my new world, 2 + 2 = 22. If it is addition, let the answer be much bigger! So what will I believe is 3 + 3? Yeah…

Phoenix, rise. I call you from the caverns and pits below. Scorched to death, matter into carcass, you thought yourself dead. Rise, Phoenix. See the light around you. It is you. You are the light. You only see the light now because you were enveloped by the dark. Allowed the dark to be black. Complete black. Pitch black. And sat in the dark. You thought yourself trapped but it mattered that you laid down, still.

Growing at a snail’s pace: so slow that speed is irrelevant. All results appear the same. Results are so slow in coming that it seems like there are no results. If a snail is traveling down a block, what does their world seem like? My world revolves around experimenting, freeing…

Sucks your joy, sucks your life right out of you I sputtered out in this career. It sucks to reach fifteen years of training and working to reach a dead end. Haha, now, I know exactly what will not work. I should have read the signs. Here are signs that…

For a birthday celebration, my friends and I went to get hot pot. My first experience ended up being a disaster because we were rushed before the buffett cleared, and I experienced 24-hours of bloat and distress after the meal. Yet, my heart longed for a second experience which my…