Down to 10 Cymbalta pellets a day

Trying to get off Cymbalta and nobody agrees. To try to survive the brain zaps, I’ve decided to open the capsule and count pellets. There seem to be a not consistent number of pellets in each capsule but there are about 200. I’ve been counting down, about 2 fewer pellets per day, and now I’m down to 10. I have the brain zaps but they’re fairly mild. I can cry before you finish spelling c-r… oops, now I’m crying. I’m pretty sure I can’t succeed but I atleast want to get off first, just to say I could.