I heard you.
I didn’t hear you.
I want to hear you.
I can’t handle hearing you.
What was that?
Stop it.
Stop the unrelenting pursuance of that nuanced heartbeat.
Stop that pulse before you can not.
What was that?
I can barely hear you.
I was scared before.
I’m sorry.
I want to hear you I think. I. I can’t.
Please leave me, I ca…
Hello?
I haven’t heard you in a while.
Please start that noise again.
I need to hear that noise.
Please, just once.
Yes you may take hold.
Grab my hand.
We can walk in there together.
I want to try something new.
I hate you.
I love you.
There, now you do me.
What’s that?
I can’t do this again.
I need to do that again.
Now you.
Lets think.
You are the ugliest thing I’ve ever seen
You are the most beautiful creature to ever announce itself to me.
We are safe here.
I think you should tell me about that time we ate at that offensively stereotypical Mexican restaurant.
No? I’ll tell it.
That time when we had gained a bunch of weight and everyone was gazing at us.
Then, in the embarrassment, you dropped that fork on the floor.
The stares pierced us.
You took a deep breathe.
You stopped the trembling.
You closed your eyes.
I closed my eyes.
We closed our eyes and then we heard it.
We heard what we were trying to hear.
Only briefly but we heard it.
You laughed.
So I laughed.
They did what they did and stared even more.
Which made us laugh even harder.
This was it.
This was were we found what we need.
Serenity.
You looked like bliss.
But it was brief.
Let’s go to the park!
That will be fun, eh?
Lets find a hill and lay down.
You look so beautiful here.
You are perfect.
Someone is coming to talk.
Please…
I’m sorry.
Forgive me.
Hello? Listen to me.
I’m sorry.
I already said I’m sorry.
She wanted to talk to me.
Yes she was nice.
I, need you to hide sometimes, because…
It’s not you…
I just want us to be happy.
Where are we?
Can I take off the blindfold?
Ok?
I’m gonna peak.
Now?!
…What is this?
It’s a bit like, something we’ve always had.
I love you.
You are looking different as of late.
You never seem to talk to me.
Why is that?
I want to be here now.
I don’t hate you.
I promise.
Do you not believe me?
You must be sick.
I’ll take care of you.
Wait.
What’s wrong?
Tell me?
Do I have to beg you?
Aren’t I worth more then that?
What do I mean to you?
I’m not ashamed of you!
.
.
.
I was scared of you…
I know it’s wrong.
Let me make it up to you.
Please don’t go!
I haven’t heard from you in weeks.
Please talk to me.
That’s all I need.
Just say one thing. I need to know if you’re ok.
You want to talk?
Well, let me let my girlfriend know I’m gonna be out for the night.
No, she won’t care.
It will be just you and me.
That’s all I want.
Do you like the view?
It’s the perfect place to come to on weekends because no one is ever here.
You can still smell the restaurants from here.
You can still see the city from here.
But we are alone, again.
Are you ok with that?
Am I? Of course I am.
I need you.
Here.
Just tonight.
Please.
I won’t hide ever again. If there is one thing I need you to believe in life. If there is but one thing.
It is this.
Yeah, my leg is trembling.
I feel.
I’m scared again.
But I feel.
I need this.
I need you.
Come, let me introduce you to my girlfriend Erica. She will like you.
They all will love you.
And if they don’t, we will run away together.
You.
Me.
Us.
We are but this moment disguised as something independent my dear.
But you and I know better.
You are the part that I loved most about myself and let die.
But you never left.
You were always here.
Waiting for me to be brave enough to hold your hand and take the piece of me that means something forward.
I tried to kill you for so long.
I tried to stab you with so many different things.
But you endured. You fucking endured.
And for that I am more proud and more of a man then I ever could of been without you.
I’m not scared of this part of me anymore.
I can be this person.
In the room with fear but that fear is what will make me strong.
So I’ll let us be. Grit my teeth.
And protect us from now on.
I am not ashamed of your name.
Because it is my own.
