Control: Jealousy, NaNoWriMo, and Sleep
I, Dalton Lewis, sleep. I sleep way too much the past two days. I have slept most of the time for the past two days, and it disgusts me. I disgust me. I also disgust me because I am jealous of my friend Simon, who is writing a NaNoWriMo novel. I hope that he succeeds but know that I will worry about my own career if he succeeds. I am writing my own NaNoWriMo novel, I think, because it makes sense to try it.
How should I feel? Simon is a great guy and a good friend. I am a big fan of his and I want him to succeed. I also want to succeed myself. My friend is a wonderful person who may write a wonderful novel. Good for him. Another friend of mine has a problem in that he has a friend working on a show for a major network and he’s jealous of his success. How should I feel about that? I want to succeed as a writer. I don’t think that I will very much, anymore, but I have to keep fighting.
Also, the Starcraft 2 Grand Finals are today, and Dark is playing Byun. The best zerg player is playing against the best terran player. T V Z is an appropriately classic matchup for the finals. I don’t know how I feel about this. This is the best Blizzcon finals they have ever had.
I, Dalton Lewis, hope. I hope that my friend succeeds. I hope that I succeed. I don’t care if I feel jealous if he wins. I will be happy for him. I, Dalton Lewis, will sit around my messy one-bedroom apartment and be happy for my friend. May you always write well, Simon.
Thanks, and take care, friends…