Control: New Material

So I have run out of pre-written material for this blog about myself, Dalton Lewis, and my friends, Finnegan, Sal, Richie, and Simon, and my ex-loves Alicia and Becca. I haven’t talked to my ex-loves in a long time. I sit around, going to the game store most days it’s open. I spend long afternoons there, wasting money that we don’t have — although I’m being more careful now- and putting together miniatures and painting them. I talked to Simon and Finnegan the other day. Simon is in Florida and has a new girlfriend. He had a regular girlfriend that I thought was another perfect couple. It was, but they aren’t together. Finnegan thinks that women are dumping men more than ever. I hate that, and I hate that he thinks that. I have new material for my blog, but I need new material for my life. I need something new. I need to develop something new. I want to be better at strategy games and strategy gaming. I want to think several moves ahead. I won one game and lost one game to someone who uses incredible greed to win. It’s a flawed strategy that shouldn’t work; had I played normally I might have won. I played aggressive, though, and couldn’t finish him off. I offer no commentary on that except to say that I’m not as much of a genius as people think that I am because I just don’t win every time or most of the time. I lose often, and in life. I failed to get a job; I failed to write a bestseller; and I hardly even can keep the weight off. I need to lose weight. Life has a lot of crushing problems that are difficult to deal with. I hope that Simon finds a job; I hope that Finnegan’s new girlfriend(?) is a good person; I hope that I can win at strategy games; I hope that Sal can overcome crushing mental illness; I hope that Richie can survive hiking from California to Canada; I hope.