Control: Paranoia Day
I, Dalton Lewis, am paranoid schizophrenic, in addition to being the author of the fourteen copy-selling My Little Paradise. These are some of my paranoias on a rough Wednesday:
My novel, Kids in Space, will be rewritten to be a stupid adventure story instead of an intelligent, challenging work of literature.
I get killed until the far future for accidentally causing a car accident and getting in trouble for it.
I get framed for a crime and killed until the far future.
In the far future, I am resurrected, and friends and family hardly pay attention to me. They aren’t my friends any more.
I write a work of fiction about someone who wants to blow up a building. I am mistaken for someone who wants to blow up a building and killed.
People lie to me about the date and don’t tell me that it’s the far future.
Relatives never talk to me again.
I will write a story whose publication will be blocked by someone who doesn’t let it come out because she owns partial rights to it.
I don’t know why my mind thinks these things. I don’t want it to. It just works this way. My mind doesn’t work correctly…there may never be an explanation, or an accurate diagnosis, for my condition. For now I simply have to live with the knowledge that these thoughts swirl through my head, and I cannot do anything about them.
Thanks, and take, friends.