Control: Worst Day of Being Sick is Behind Me
Well, yesterday sucked. I was sick all day long, lying around and sleeping all day and thinking bad thoughts. I think bad thoughts all day long, every day, but this is different. I had thoughts that I didn’t like, dreaming of being correctly fired and thinking I was fired because I was mentally ill.
I hate life. I hate everything. I’m not well. I play strategy games poorly. I write poorly. I want to be talented and successful and smart and sharp and intelligent and beloved, but those things aren’t happening.
The problem with life is that it is long and difficult and includes sickness and pain and a lot of misery. I have to handle it properly. I have to just push forward and say, I made it. I went past the day of being ill and made it to a better state of being.