I wonder if most of us think like this from time to time. You’ve reminded me of the last time I had these thoughts. It was when the ebola virus was beginning to get out of control in the US, and that doctor had just come back from taking care of the dying in Liberia. Instead of staying home in self quarantine, he took public transportation to a restaurant and then went bowling, possibly spreading it around New York. The CDC said there really wasn’t much to worry about. So I wished for it to spread “to show them.” I feel terrible about myself when I do this.