Changing my name on here is one of the first steps in my transition.

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If you don’t have an article of clothing with the trans pride colors, then are you really even trans?

So, I’ve gone by the name Ellie Rebecca for quite some time, but after deliberating on it for the past few months, I’ve decided to change it. I need to start going by something more masculine-sounding in order to combat the intense gender dysphoria I’ve been feeling lately.

I’d like to be called Danny or Daniel from now on.

I’ve felt uncomfortable being perceived as “a girl” for my entire life. I knew there was something different about me, but I just couldn’t articulate it for the longest time. When I learned what gender dysphoria was at about age nineteen, I thought that it described me perfectly. …


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REVIEW

A spoiler-free review of the prequel to the smash hit The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild

Despite the overwhelmingly high praise that The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild (BotW) had been receiving since its release in early 2017, I didn’t get around to actually playing the game until late 2018. I hadn’t played very many games in the Zelda franchise. But not long after I started, I wished I’d done it sooner. It simply blew me away.

BotW took the standard formula of a Zelda game and turned it on its head. It was just similar enough to attract longtime fans while reeling in new ones like me.

You play as Link, who has awoken with amnesia a hundred years after the main villain, Calamity Ganon, has overtaken the land of Hyrule. Throughout your adventure, you gradually learn about what life was like before by exploring the various parts of Hyrule. …


And I plan on making 2021 even queerer.

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Photo by Rakicevic Nenad from Pexels

Saying that 2020 was a year filled with massive change has become something of a cliché at this point. But I am ending this year in a completely different place than where I started it, and I couldn’t be more grateful.

In a story published about a year ago on January 1st, 2020, I described myself as a “bisexual woman-aligned person.” That was how I identified at the time, even though I felt an inkling that it wasn’t quite right.

I knew I wasn’t a heterosexual cisgender woman like many people assumed, but I hadn’t entirely come to terms with who I really was. …


Can you truly respect trans people if you disrespect our pronouns?

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The word “pronouns” seems to have become a sort of buzzword lately. As soon as it is uttered, trans people and transphobes alike poke their heads up, ready to spring into battle at a moment’s notice.

In recent years, this word often indicates that a discussion about trans people is about to occur. Indeed, in these conversations, the word “pronouns” often seems synonymous with “trans people.”

That’s why, as a trans person, it rubs me the wrong way when people make jokes about pronouns.

I was originally tempted to write this piece back in September, when The Mandalorian actress Gina Carano appeared to mock people who disclose their pronouns in their Twitter bios by writing “beep/bop/boop” in hers. …


Until I stepped into warm sunlight

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Growing up, I always knew that I “wasn’t like other girls,” but I just couldn’t articulate the reason why.

Maybe it was because I wasn’t interested in wearing frilly pink clothes. Maybe it was because I preferred playing with my brother’s Hot Wheels cars rather than the dolls my family members bought for me. Maybe it was because I had undiagnosed autism and couldn’t understand most of the intricate social rules that all of the other kids had apparently been born knowing.

Little did I know that the reason I didn’t feel like “other girls” was that I wasn’t actually a girl at all. …


Yes, Virginia, there is a heterosexual explanation for this.

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When you’re as queer as I am, you inevitably end up noticing all of the painfully heterosexual things that straight people do that you just can’t help but laugh at.

One of those things includes straight men covering the unquestionably un-straight and clearly sexual Christmas jazz song “Santa Baby.”

“Santa Baby” was originally performed in 1953 by Eartha Kitt. Essentially, the lyrics imply that the speaker is offering to fuck Santa Claus if he promises to bring her the stuff she wants for Christmas. At the time, many prim-and-proper Americans were upset by its sexual connotations, with some radio stations outright banning it. …


People like me do not transition simply to escape the oppression of living as women.

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I have always been a feminist. Even back when I thought I was a cisgender heterosexual girl, I spent much of my free time in the early 2010s reading feminist blogs on Tumblr. Granted, most of that feminism was focused solely on elevating the rights of cishet white women, but it eventually opened my eyes up to intersectional feminism that included women of color, queer women, and trans women.

I’ve been aware that our culture is heavily patriarchal. Men are in charge of the vast majority of societies on Earth. …


It has some depressing and even potentially traumatic scenes.

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Source: Hulu

Warning: This article includes major spoilers for Hulu’s Happiest Season.

Long ago, in the Pre-Pandemic Era, I remember hearing that Clea DuVall (of But I’m a Cheerleader fame) would be directing a lesbian Christmas romantic comedy starring Mackenzie Davis (of the “San Junipero” episode of Black Mirror fame) and Kristen Stewart (of…being a lesbian fame).

I remember feeling absolutely ecstatic. At the time, I couldn’t think of a single holiday-themed gay rom-com that existed already. This movie, called Happiest Season, seemed like it would infiltrate the overwhelmingly heterosexual space of cheesy Hallmark Christmas movies and make it gay.

As the Hulu original's release date drew closer, I began reading every early review I could. The vast majority of them had mainly positive things to say. In fact, most of them claimed it was the lighthearted lesbian holiday romp we’ve been waiting for. …


I just want one last holiday season where everyone in my family respects me.

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Even before 2020, when real-life holiday gatherings became actual death sentences, this time of year could be rough for just about anyone. The happiest of families can still face some tension when members of all ages are all together at one table.

Holiday dinners have always been awful for me, even before I knew I was queer. I was routinely asked whether I had a boyfriend, and if I did, whether he lived up to my dad’s parents’ rigid, old-fashioned standards of how a gentleman should behave. …


And does it even matter?

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Source: 20th Century Fox

Back in the Before Times, my family had a tradition of getting together every Christmas to watch three specific movies: Elf, Love Actually, and Die Hard.

As a comedy about a human raised by Santa’s elves that takes place in December, Elf is undoubtedly a Christmas movie.

One could argue that Love Actually is more of a romantic comedy than a Christmas story. Since it takes place during the eight weeks leading up to Christmas, though, most people seem to associate it with the holiday season.

But Die Hard is a whole other ball game. People have gotten into extremely heated debates about whether it counts as a Christmas movie. …

About

Danny Jackson H.

They/he. The writer formerly known as Ellie Rebecca. 25-year-old nonbinary trans guy-ish. Reach me at dannyjacksonh@gmail.com.

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