Your story really hit home with me. The in between places I think are where the great learning and growing happens. Sometimes I also think that if you loosen the grip on the old life or the set patterns it allows something to easily place itself in your path. I know I have had that happen, where things just seem to show up or are in my path. It then takes you to not fear but to make the choice and keep moving forward. To me it is a moving forward thing. No time to waste with the past just learn from it and move along.