This is what not being able to trust your emotions feels like. Having Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome means struggling with my reproductive health and hormone balance and can sometimes leave me in a state that is purely emotional. There isn’t always a trigger. I can’t definitively explain why I’m in tears at 3pm, rubbing my forehead in the hopes that I can trick myself into calming down. It’s a fight against… well, against something inside my head that tells me everything is falling down around my shoulders. It’s frustrating and cyclical. As soon as I get frustrated with being upset about seemingly nothing, I upset myself further because there is nothing I can do about being upset in that moment, and giving myself a hard time certainly doesn’t help, and twenty minutes later I’m still crying on the couch asking the cat to come give me a cuddle. But she’s scared of my wailing and hides under the kitchen table. And then I’m lonely, so the wailing continues.