
Lord I Can’t Wait
I can’t wait to meet my husband. I can’t wait. Lord I can’t wait.
Let me explain. I had fallen. Wasn’t looking where I was going, turned my head for just a second. Got distracted and ran right into him. HIM. I haven’t been the same since him. Started out as friends and then it transformed into something… else… It turned into a thing. Him became I and we became us and I was falling fast and deep and he was deep inside me and all the while I’m wondering “does she know, does he love her the way he loves me, she has the ring but I have his heart, she has his name but I have his soul… does she know” I was lost. Lost in love with a man that loved me so deep and three times on Sunday for The Father The Son and The Holy Spirit. He satisfied my desires and left me wanting more yet feeding me just enough so I wouldn’t look elsewhere despite the situation. I had to get out, I couldn’t see, but I was running, running from his fingers that had found my g-spot and left me gripping the sheets and biting the pillows forgetting my name as my eyes rolled in the back of my head hearing him whisper “I love you” I was up up up and then I came crashing down as he explored my inner most parts and then licked his fingers clean and kissed me on the lips. Damn, what had he done to me. I had to get away, had to rip myself clean of the sin I had created, remove the Scarlet A from my chest and replace it with SURVIVOR. He almost killed me, he almost broke me. My body craved him and still does at times yet my heart… My heart got in the way and my head wanted to stay because he had tasted my lips and made my back dip to him wanting him to take all of me. Kissed each of my fingers and made me forget who I was or who we were and what we were doing. I loved him. He was my man who belong to another. It hurt, I was broken, I was lost and confused and unsure of who I was yet I made it. I went each day alone and broken and lost and thanking God for opening my eyes and screamed out I’M CUMING as he hit my spot, OOOHHHH MMYYYY GOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDD baby I’m cuming, I’m cuming on your di… Wake up baby you were having a nightmare. You dreamed it all. God gave you sample of what he has in store for you. I can’t wait to meet my husband. I can’t wait for him to love me senseless. I can’t wait for him to hit my spot without directions he just knows how to get to it. I can’t wait to meet him. I can’t wait to love him and protect him and make love to him and share life with him. I can’t wait to have him kiss all my fingers and finally kiss me so deep that my knees goes week and tears fill my eyes. I can’t wait to whisper his name as he kisses my neck. I can’t wait to taste his life and hold it within my womb and birth greatness into this world and prayerfully give it more light. I can’t wait. I can’t wait. Lord I can’t wait.